Have you ever wondered why Jesus allowed Thomas to touch his wounds?
Most of us probably look down on Thomas for his lack of faith. How is it possible that he could question? He was right there with Christ.
We aren't much different. We see God work miracles in provision, and then the next day we throw up our hands begging God to provide again. It's okay to pray for provision, but so often we pray out of worry even though we saw him work the day before.
So is it wrong to to desire to see something from God? It often is a lack of faith, yet sometimes, like Thomas, He shows Himself in such amazing ways that we should never doubt again.
Have you ever wondered why some people see God work more than others? Some people seem to have such an easy life, where they don't seem to have to ask for anything. I wonder if that is a blessing?
Most of the time we see God the most in the storms or in the hardships. We don't pray for those times to come, but ultimately they are what mold us through faith. In the storm, we might yell at God and question Him. Our attitude could be completely wrong, and yet He allows some of us to see Him in a clearer way than others when our faith is lacking.
Those who suffer from cancer might know these moments well. Perhaps in those moments when the pain or fear is at its worst, God gives you a glimpse of himself when he relieves you even if it is for a moment.
Perhaps you experience this as you mourn over a friend or loved one who seems so lost. When you are in the midst of it all, you feel the presence of God almost like a hug. It's happened to me. Once. That friend who I mourned over, and God comforted me in the mourning, is now in heaven.
Maybe you live a "normal" life with a child who has special needs. The normal will never truly be so. In your mind, there is always that "if only" that really shouldn't be there, but it's a struggle to keep it away. In the midst of that battle, your little one, grips your arm or smiles at you when you lay him down for a nap. It's those moments that are miracles to you. Those moments are special where you see God in a way that no one else does.
I think of the family that has become so popularized with their son's "visit to heaven." I only put it in quotes because there is so much skepticism over these things. I have read the book because a church member when I was a pastor's wife was talking about it, and I thought I should be informed. I honestly didn't know what to think, but maybe a family like theirs that had gone through so many trials in one year and perhaps were still not as strong in faith as God desired, needed to see more. It really seems that their faith grew with their son's testimony. Only God knows everything there.
When you are doubting, weak in your faith, hurting, God loves you. He shows us Himself in ways that only He would know we need. When He does allow you to see, it might not be during an easy time, but remember it for the next time.